Friday, July 31, 2009

pañuelo of the day: Tuesday, July 28, 2009

This black-and-white scarf was another Mom purchase. And speaking of Mom, that's her on the right. She probably won't like that I put her picture in here, but I get tired of the solo photos. We're at a restaurant celebrating June and July birthdays with friends and a couple of margaritas.

pañuelo of the day: Monday, July 27, 2009

Day 2 of Housesitting at Amy's. The scarf is a green Hobby Lobby bandanna.

pañuelo of the day: Sunday, July 26, 2009

Today I started a housesitting gig at my friend Amy's house. Nice pond, huh?
The pink scarf came from Mom. It's a casual hangout scarf, probably purchased at Goodwill or a resale shop.

pañuelo of the day: Saturday, July 25, 2009

BBQ! Today I saw a bunch of Colorado friends at an evening cookout party. Of course, it rained. And I was still hobbling. But it was great to see people. Joanne gave me the new chile pepper scarf. Not sure where she got it. Guess I should have asked.

pañuelo of the day: Friday, July 24, 2009

Another long day, followed by a big rest on the couch. Scarf? This pink-and-blue number is one of my favorite workout and hangout scarves. I think Mom bought it, but I have no idea where from. Maybe she'll check the blog and fill us in.

pañuelo of the day: Thursday, July 23, 2009

This is another work scarf: browns and black, made by Mom. Perfect for a day of meetings.

pañuelo of the day: Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Today was the big interview day, and I wore the famous black scarf. But afterwards, when I was breathing a sigh of relief that it was over, I rested in another new scarf, a Mom purchase from Goodwill. I had trouble capturing the blue and green on the bottom, so I put in two photos.

pañuelo of the day: Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Of course, Mom gifted me with new scarves the minute I stepped into Colorado. This one is my new favorite. I think she got it at Goodwill, or at a resale shop. As I understand it, the scarf was much bigger when she purchased it. But Mom is clever with a sewing machine. So she cut the material in half and made two scarves: one for me and one for my niece Lindsey. Love the blues!

pañuelo of the day: Monday, July 20, 2009

We made it! Here I am in Broomfield, Colorado, resting at my sister's house. I look pretty worn out. And I am. Luckily, we made good time and arrived before the big storm, which did millions of dollars in damage to the area.
The scarf is one Mom bought at Goodwill.

pañuelo of the day: Sunday, July 19, 2009

Still driving, clearly. This time from Springfield to Salina, Kansas. I don't recommend this driving was way too long a day.
The scarf is a Hobby Lobby bandanna. Much cuter than yesterday, but I may have been more tired.

pañuelo of the day: Saturday, July 18: 2009

This is me on the road, driving from DC to Springfield, Missouri. I'm at the Holiday Inn, with Mom, my travel angel. She helped me with the driving, since I was suffering from a sprained ankle. Still am, nearly two weeks later. What can I say? It was a bad sprain.
Anyway, the scarf is a Hobby Lobby camouflage bandanna.

Friday, July 17, 2009

pañuelo of the day: Friday, July 17, 2009

Mom made this scarf. If I look dead tired in this photo, it's because I am dead tired. I'll try for a better look tomorrow.

pañuelo of the day: Thursday, July 16, 2009

This is another Hobby Lobby scarf, a blue-and-purple one. I had to take two photos so you could see the pattern, though with the poor lighting, you can't see much of the purple. Or maybe that's just my computer screen. Or my tired eyes.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

pañuelo of the day: Wednesday, July 15, 2009

I think this red flowery scarf is a Hobby Lobby find, back when Hobby Lobby made scarves a little bigger. I can't be sure. All I know is: It matches my cute red shirt perfectly, and I have a mojito in my hand, so life is good.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Comfortable in My Own Skin

When I made the transition from wigs to scarves, I remember being uncomfortable. I did not look people in the eye; I studied the floor, the ceiling, the space just beyond someone’s shoulder. I remember wishing I were invisible, that I could blend into the background, that the earth would swallow me up.

What I didn’t know then, but know now, is that everyone knew it.

I signed up for the Peace Corps knowing I would have to let go of my anonymity. I saw the video, the girl who says all the unwanted attention is a little much sometimes. I got it. I was okay with it. In my interview, I repeatedly said, “No problem” to everything they threw my way. Extra attention? No problem. Unwanted attention? No problem. I was going to stand out, and it wasn’t a problem.

And it wasn’t—eventually. I got used to being recognized, followed, stared at, and yes, even complimented. I even grew to like it, to need it, to crave it. I enjoyed being the It Girl in town. Sometimes I miss it, even now, seven years after my arrival in Honduras, five years since my return.

But those first few days, with my naked scalp wrapped in a scarf, just a scarf, only a scarf—I felt so exposed. I felt it, but I didn’t know that people could see it. I didn’t know how obvious it was, how visible, until a month ago, when I was tagged in a photo posted on Facebook, by a fellow volunteer, from the very first day in country.

And then I saw it, so clearly, a woman I didn't even recognize anymore, the me I used to be before I was comfortable in my own skin.

Day 1 in Honduras
The shift from wig to scarf, just a scarf, only a scarf

A bright swatch of fabric, announcing my entrance into a room
The scarf was looser, lower on my forehead
Perhaps I tie it tighter now
But that’s not why I look so different
I hold my arms close to my center
As if to protect myself
From what? I can’t recall
The girl in this photo looks both ways when she steps into a room
She doesn’t look people in the eye
She has erected walls
She is me, but she isn’t me
I don’t know this girl anymore

pañuelo of the day: Tuesday, July 14, 2009

This scarf is a great summer option. It's lightweight and a fun summery color. Mom picked the fabric and sewed this one, and then we shopped for days to find matching outfits. Tip: Browns are hard to match. Bring the scarf with you to your favorite clothing store.

pañuelo of the day: Monday, July 13, 2009

This is a blue Hobby Lobby scarf, which I sported here in Northern Virginia while I limped and hobbled and rested. A whole day without driving. Ahhh.

pañuelo of the day: Sunday, July 12, 2009

Another staged photo, taken today of the bandanna scarf I wore on the drive from upstate NY to Northern Virginia on Sunday. I call this scarf my Harley bandanna, even though I got it at Hobby Lobby, which is pretty much the opposite of a Harley store.
I'm waiting on a photo of me applying the RICE treatment: Rest, Ice, Compression, Elevation. I wouldn't normally want to share this type of photo with the world (and I won't if it turns out bad), but it was taken of me and little Anna, an adorable four-year old who was fascinated by my swollen and bruised ankle. So fascinated that she insisted on wrapping her leg in my Ace bandage, and icing her foot alongside me. I hope it comes soon, and it's good, so I can post it. (For now, use your imagination.)

pañuelo of the day: Saturday, July 11, 2009

Another staged photo: This is the dress and scarf I wore to a fancy dinner out in Saratoga Springs with friends Saturday night. Only, it took so much energy to hobble around that there was none left for photo taking.

As for the scarf, I have to be honest. I have no idea where this one came from. I'm assuming Mom gave it to me, but I'm not sure if she got it from Goodwill, or from a box of old clothes she meant to give to Goodwill but never did. Maybe she'll respond and enlighten us.

pañuelo of the day: Friday, July 10, 2009

Okay, this is where the staged photos begin. On Thursday night, I sprained my ankle. And no, I don't have a great story. I was standing, then I was falling, then I was hobbling. I've been hobbling ever since. Of course, I kept moving, from idyllic Southern Vermont (site of accident) to upstate New York. But somehow, taking a photo seemed to be where I had to draw the line. I can assure you, however, that this brown scarf, made by my Mom, was the one I wore on Friday, with this very shirt. But in the spirit of full disclosure, I have to admit the photo was taken today, back in Northern Virginia.

pañuelo of the day: Thursday, July 9, 2009

At Ben & Jerry's for the tour, the graveyard of retired flavors, a scoop of peanut butter cookie dough, and some spin art. A worthwhile excursion.

This is my purple scarf, a favorite for casual and dressup. Mom made it, or maybe it was Denise? Either way, I hope it never goes to the graveyard. Ever.

Peace, Love & Icecream...Now this is my kind of place.

Chocolate peanut butter cookie dough went to the graveyard? What?!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

pañuelo of the day: Wednesday, July 8, 2009

The scarf is a black-and-white sunburst print from Coldwater Creek. When I don't have a perfect color match, I just pair a shirt with a black-and-white print and black pants.
As for my podium look, that's going to take some work.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Benefit of Not Having Hair #6: Prep Time

I don't think I've ever been more exhausted than I am here at my MFA residency. It's not just the schedule; it's the emotional drain of sharing open wounds with each other. That's what writers do. We don't start with what we did over the weekend; we start with the traumas and tragedies in our lives, the things that drew us to writing and that we share in our stories. Don't get me wrong; I love it. But it's tiring. We're also putting ourselves out there. I've read my work in an official "reading" for the first time. I'm getting my work critiqued. The good news? Well, there's lots of good news. So I'll stick to the hair-related variety here. Since I don't have to wash my hair, I am able to get ready much faster than most. Which is good, considering how tired I am each day.

pañuelo of the day: Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Downtown Montpelier: Is this a Main Street or what? I went down to the used bookstore in the morning to buy some of my books for the semester. The town has a nice vibe, a very anti-conformity vibe.
The scarf was made by Mom; it's been a favorite this week. Too bad you can't see the striped pants, a perfect color match. Good thing you can't see the pants, after all the food we've been eating. (The food is provided by a culinary institute; not the dorm food I remember!)

pañuelo of the day: Monday, July 6, 2009

Everyone is so nice at Vermont College. When I had my first breakdown, my new poet friend gave me a card about courage. I have to remind myself: It takes courage to put yourself out there. Another poet friend gave me flowers from her garden; I came back to my dorm room to find them, fresh, in a vase, by my door.
The scarf is a solid brown bandanna from Hobby Lobby.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

pañuelo of the day: Sunday, July 5, 2009

Later in the day I bought maple syrup and visited with the llamas. Maple syrup - expensive. Llamas - very cute. I also sampled my first creamee, a soft serve cone of maple ice cream. Ok, well, I say sample but what I really mean is I ate a medium cone. Delish.

This morning the sun was actually out. We've heard about sun in Vermont, but we hadn't seen it yet. I took advantage and went on a short walk this morning. I selected the blue house for my background today because it matches my eyes. And I like blue. And I like the idea of blue houses.

Oh yeah, the scarf. It's another black one, made by Mom. And no, I am not cheating. I own several black scarves. I will photograph them all together later and post just so you'll see I'm telling the truth.

pañuelo of the day: Saturday, July 4, 2009

This scarf was made by Mom. It really does match my shirt, but you can't tell, b/c the green part of the shirt is at the bottom. So you're just going to have to trust me on this. It is not very Fourth of July-ish. But then, the day didn't feel very Fourth of July-ish. I went to 3 lectures and a reading. I had a meeting with a graduate assistant about my work. It was a busy school day, not a day off, not a break, not a holiday. (Though, we did have a cookout.)
P.S. The building in the background is my dorm. Cute, huh?

Saturday, July 4, 2009

pañuelo of the day: Friday, July 3, 2009

This scarf was made by Mom. You can't tell but it's black with streaks of gray, burgundy, and purple. And it matches my necklace, which is important.
I am standing in front of Noble Hall, where I've attended 8 lectures, 31 student readings, and a handful of faculty readings in less than a week. This is the spot from which I watched the Montpelier Fourth of July fireworks display. So yes, I've already watched my holiday fireworks. Not much when compared to Thunder Over Louisville, the largest annual fireworks show in the country, but still, beautiful.

Friday, July 3, 2009

Would you rather...

Have noticeable bald spots on your head or noticeable acne on your face?

pañuelo of the day: Thursday, July 2, 2009

This is one of my oldest and worn-out scarves, a Hobby Lobby bandanna scarf.

Happy Anniversary Melanie and Glenn!

pañuelo of the day: Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Too busy.
Too tired.
Too rainy.
Too hard.
This has been my life the past couple of days, here in Vermont as I begin my writing program. I've even thought about moving to a scarf of the week while I'm here, but I worked too hard to pack only outfits that matched scarves I haven't worn yet since starting the blog, and wouldn't want to waste all that effort. So I'm back...catching up on my posts and sharing more scarves.
This scarf was a Goodwill find (thanks Mom). Note: Montpelier is such a cute town; see the houses in the background? I think I could be happy here.